So long... Farewell!

Well, our contract is finally up on our internet and we are CANCELLING! Bittersweet, but ya do whatcha gotta do. Right? Right. So, since we don't want to go too nutso, we're signing up for Netflix and still saving $30 a month!!!!!!!! So, I doubt I'll really ever blog. I'll try and check my e-mail at the library once in a while. But this is me. Signing out. I doubt anyone will really miss it anyways, so... "Okay! Peace out!" (Big Daddy)

THAT'S more like it!

WOW! What a breath of fresh air: I actually had a GREAT mommy day yesterday! I'm not sure when the last time I said that was. Or the last time I thought it, or felt it, etc. It took me AT LEAST a year after Alexis was born to feel 'normal'. As horrible as this sounds (go ahead and judge: I'm giving you permission) I resented her (and sometimes still do) when I can't just have one-on-one time with Cameron. Or her, for that matter. I can't seem to find enough time in the day (I know, who can.. right?) to do all that is expected of me. (Or to do what I expect of myself.) BUT YESTERDAY... I dropped Cameron off at school, and me and Alexis went out! We had to go pay a bill, but walking from the office back to the car, I held her hand and let her walk. At her pace. And let her look. She loved looking around and looking at the clouds in the sky. I really don't get a chance to do that like I did with Cameron. Now, I have to HOLD her while I'm trying to hold Cameron's hand, blah blah blah. We had to return some stuff at Target, and we got to be silly (WITHOUT CAMERON BUTTING IN BECAUSE HE CANNOT BE LEFT OUT OF ANYTHING) as I pushed her in the cart. In the line for customer service, I had her giggling so hard. The lady behind the counter told me what a great laugh she has. AMEN! Even in the car, I was able to talk to her, dance/sing with her. It was wonderful! No yelling, no frustration, just fun! On the way to pick Cameron up from school, she fell asleep. So I decided to pick Cameron up in the car. When we got home, miraculously, Alexis stayed asleep during the 'transfer' to bed. She proceeded to sleep for ~ 1 1/2 hours! WHICH left me plenty of time to have one-on-one time with CAMERON! OH my, I love that kid! He is such a blast! AGAIN: no yelling, no frustration (well, not none... sometimes the kids' lack of comprehension makes me go crazy, but I controlled myself!) His 'Aunt' Teri gave him a book from Cranium called "Funfolio jr. edition" and I tell you what: that thing produced many laughs! It is very interactive and has wonderful ideas for imaginative play. We laughed, Cameron cried he was laughing so hard, he learned some new things, he drew and INCREDIBLE picture... I wish every day could be this way. It makes me so excited for Cameron to go to school every day so I can have this time with Alexis. BUT how do I get one-on-one time with Cameron once he's in Kindergarten??? Here's hoping it works: because if every day could be like yesterday, then being a mom really IS the greatest thing in the world!

Here's to common interests!

My favorite part about Alexis singing it: she came up with it herself! I never taught it to her. I happened to be listening to the song yesterday and she started singing along! I just had to get a video!



MY KIDS ARE SO COOL!!!

Pretty, pretty Princess!

I remembered we had a few 'extra' Halloween costumes that were given to us. I figured, if Cameron was going to be Batman today, why not have Alexis play dress up too?!

Check out that pouty face. She can be such a brat!

She's throwing a fit because she wants the wings off.


See how quickly she recovers from her fit? Yeah, that's why I don't often feel bad for her! Drama queen! But she sure is a cute one!

Top that, Taylor Swift!

I've been listening to Taylor Swift quite a bit lately. She reminds me of a cross between Cyndi Thompson & Jessica Andrews (both of whom I LOVE!). BUT... I just listened to some of her live stuff. And I gotta say, I've lost some respect for her. One person commented on her YouTube video by saying how great she was and then.., " I know her voice wasn't as good live as it is in the single, but who's is??" Ho, ho! I beg to difer! That's why there's WAY too many artists out there. Because they don't even have to be good live to be popular!!! Anyways, here's some stuff from some REAL artists (in my opinion!)

FYI, they don't start singing until 1 min. 5 sec.


That mandolin? SHEESH! I'm (kinda) sad because they changed it from the original version, but OH MY! I am such a sucker for the mandolin!!!!!!!!!!!!

And the song that brings back so many memories.



Get out your guitar, Amy. Now that you're FINALLY here, LET'S JAM!!!!!!!!!!!

6th time's a charm!

So here's the video. I honestly don't know what the problem was. But I wasn't about to give up! Obviously it's not the most 'flattering' video of Alexis. But it is by far the funniest. I love it!

Hang tight...

I have THE FUNNIEST video of Alexis to post... BUT heaven forbid: it's 2 min. and 30 seconds. Stupid YouTube takes FOREVER to upload! I had it uploading for 2 hours and it still wasn't working. So we're attempting it once again. But check back: it'll be worth it. ;)

What do I say to that?

My dad died the day before Christmas. It was weird to attend his funeral on Tuesday since I haven't seen/talked to him in ~13 years. I didn't view the body, although as I was looking around for family, I happened to see him. I'm grateful it was only for one quick second, because I do NOT do well with dead bodies. My mom keeps telling me it's good that we (my sister and I) went to the funeral so we can have closure. Closure? I have NO closure. ZERO. ZILCH. NADA. If anything, it's made me think and think and think and think about it. Over and over again. The speakers seemed like they wanted to say more, but held back. My sister and I were never mentioned (except for the reading of the obituary) in which it stated that he was survived by his two daughters. No one came to tell us how much our dad loved us. Because... well, it wasn't true. He could care less. He left us and never looked back. I was glad no one came out and lied. I was half expecting a speaker to get all teary-eyed and say "And his pride and joy in life were his daughters... blah blah blah". So I was glad they didn't, because I would have been outraged. BUT it was also a big fat slap in the face that no one did. Because now I really know the truth. One of the speakers told how my dad (while in the hospital) asked said man, if he'd speak at his funeral. And keep it under 5 minutes. (hardy har har har har I can't stop laughing har har har har har...)
He knew he was going to die. Other people who spoke mentioned that my dad said he wasn't read to die yet. He still had things to do, that he needed to do. Then I find out he had said this MONTHS ago. Again, I'm so glad that one of those things he needed to do before dying was contacting his daughters. Oh, and meeting their spouses. AND his grandchildren. Oh well. Closure or not, I'm glad I went. It would have been one of those things I know I would have regretted forever. Or maybe not.